Tomorrow's the last day of this shitty year (I find shitty).
At the end of the year, here I am, overweight, single, no outstandingly satisfying results for studies and 1st time celebrating birthday in a shittiest manner (and will be like this again for the next two years).
Speaking of birthday, my dad suggested a birthday bash next year to make up for my shitty 21st birthday this year. I replied, saying that it is no use celebrating once you're over 21 dy. Every year just marks a year closer for me to die. Ah, the pessimistic remark. It sure took him aback for a moment.
One thing I learned this year, which I find it useful. Whatever shit happens, there is no compensation. All I can do is to swallow the shit in my life and embrace it, for shit is part of my life =) ah, the pessimistic remark again. I don't know. Too much shit happens and I'm too lazy to even bother and give a fuck about it.
Within this year, rum and vodka have been my new best friends. I somehow express myself better when I am drunk compared to when I am sober. Of course, the terrible hangover is a price to pay though.
It gets harder and harder for me to express my feelings to people as I age. All I can do now is to drown myself into sea of vodka. Well, at least it took me away from reality for a few years.
Ah I hate the pessimism!!! Wish 2012 can be an optimistic year!!! I don't want it to end so soon!!! There's nothing particularly good happening to me that are able to make me forget all the shit, so let me live longer to forget all the shit by letting all the good stuff happening to me okayy???
Ah. Seriously. Wish I can go to Perth faster than I can.
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